AITA the asshole to not wanting to go to my grandparents house or study in the state they live.

Context: my mother's parents live 400 something km away from where me and my family live. They're very religious people and their city screams religion. They also don't like how I dress or how I behave and things I do, but they love me, a lot actually.

So I'm about to start higher secondary schooling and my family and grandparents want me to study at my grandparents' since the coaching there is top notch but the school itself is a bit far and they also want me to learn more about the religion and become a decent religious girl. My grandfather is a great scholar and runs a boys hostel which is connected to their house, so he wants to guide me in my higher studies and wants me to have the best. The schools are average but there aren't any good coaching centres for 11th standard in my town.

The problem is I despise the place and the people, not my grandparents. They have very different culture there and I feel suffocated. My grandparents love me and want the best for me So they want me there, and my grandfather is a great scholar so he wants to guide me in making my future. He teaches all day at his hostel , and the hostel is another reason for me not wanting to go there. The boys seem to love gossiping and talking behind my back, and some even like to check me out or reach out through my social media. My grandparents want me to dress according to the people there and also act accordingly. Going out alone is not allowed, being with friends is not allowed going out after sunset is not allowed, music not allowed, singing not allowed, dancing in the garden not allowed, having male friends not allowed, etc etc. Also my grandfather loves teaching and I can't be seen wasting my time and I must study at all times. I also don't like them commenting on my body being fat (I'm not overweight tho). But the thing is that they always treat me nicely and ask me if I'm liking it there and buy me a whole lot of snacks and also ask me if I want anything else. My grandfather is always worried about my studies and proceeds to ask me study related questions and oral tests every time I'm on a call with him.

My grandfather says he's lonely without his kids and grandkids and wants me to spend my coming holidays there and also to find a good school and coaching for me , to which I keep making excuses and saying I'll definitely visit them later sometime.



I don't wanna study there and every time this discussion comes up with my parents, they say that it's for my best, and if they ask me for a reason I leave it at that cause I'm a little too sensitive and tears roll down my cheeks everytime. I can't tell them that I hate my mother's home and I don't like her parents for being too controlling.

So AITA for not understanding the love they have for me and being stupid and proceeding to ruin my own life over some meaningless freedom and childish dislikes, throwing tantrums.